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| Hey guys i totally havent been on in forever!! im sorry! my school blocked xanga and im never at my dads house ya know!! so anyway how are all you guys doin?
today was such a great day... yes it was rainy and nasty all day... but for somereason i was just really happy!!! i woke up and i had to get my prom dress and than i got a phone call that was VERY VERY EXCITING!! im sure you will all find out very soon!!! and than i hung out with my baby sister she is the cutiest thing ever! and than i basically went to the movies with some girls and seriously the movie Stick it is so good!! on my way back from paw paw to my dads house is about 45 min and for some reason i was scared that i had someone in the backseat of my car ( ya know like on scary movies and stuff) plus, it was super windy and i dont know i was just tired and scared.. so ya know i turned on the christian music station and just was totally praying out loud.. i mean like real loud seriously yea i pray but this time i just felt like God was really really there and he was really listening.. but bad new it started raining real hard and the station went out so i finished what i was saying and turned it to this one station.. it was the spice girls and i was just really happy like the lord made me just happy and really fullfilled!!! so i was singing the spice girls really really loud and it was fun just with me and jesus!!
on another note-- can i ask that you would pray for me! i am getting really frustrated with people and the things they think are okay but really arent~ and i dont know what to say or do anymore! so just for for a clarity and just the lords words that they arent mine but his and that even when i do get frustrated i look to him and ask him first before anyone!! thanks so much!!
Louis i told you id leave you a shout out!! you awesome! and they way you love God is awesome! Just know that the things you do may go un noticed by man but not by God.. you mean alot to him! Keep doing what you DOing... love god with all your heart mind and soul!! | | |
| WHAT THE HECK!! so one minute everything is great.. like last night was crosscurrent and i finally got to go!! it was awesome! and Chase went with us! he really liked it and than i talked to morgan and i find out all this stuff about how people are saying that i am fake and that i am a horrible person.. and i find out that his one person tells me that they are somebody that loves god and really tries to do things pleasing to God but i find out that they are totally not like that and was drinkin and taking shot with a few people! honestly that hurts me so bad! and i sit here and think about it and im just like God what the heck how can everything one second be great and the next everthing is crappy...
And God was just like Leanne stop worrying so much! i have everything how its supposed to be!~ and you freak out...
So right now i am just learning how my God is not a confussing God and how i just need to let God work through me and not get all worked up about little thing... but instead i should pray about everything and worrie about nothing!!
So if anything just pray that ill do that! thanks guys!!
a little shout out to SAMANTHA JANE and DANIELLE!!! thanks for eveything you guys have been there for me when i need you the most!!
LINDSAY!! YOU ARE ALWAYS JUST LISTENING TO GOD AND I SEE THAT IN YOU ALL THE TIME! THANKS FOR BEING HONEST WITH ME AND THANKS FOR TEACHING ME HOW TO BE HONEST! IT MEANS ALOT!!! YOUR SO GREAT AND I NEED AND WANT YOU IN MY LIFE!! | | |
| Okay so i just want to start off with GOD IS SO STINKIN AMAZING!!! Just the way that he works and does things amazes me!! first off me and Carley talked on the phone the other night for like 2 hours and i really do love her and will never stop... me and danielle finally caught up on eachothers lives!!! and and Dan pena called me on his way home and told me that he loved me and that he wanted me to poop in the pickle jar and than call him back!!! seriously.. i woke up this morning not wanted to go to school... i looked at my phone and i had a voicemail! so i checked it and it was dan and he just had made my day better... he was the first one to make me laugh... man i miss my big bro!! Dan THAT MEANT ALOT TO ME BY THE WAY! i know it was really stupid but you made my day!!! (ps i love to poop and i would have but the pickle jar is still full and my mom would have been mad at me.. but i will next time i promise) okay so another reason why god is good is because...
Chase was over at my house like always and i was trying to study!! and do you guys remember the footballs that we got at crosscurrent? well chase threw it at me and i was like hey!!! and he was like im taking it home.. and i was like no your not... so long story short me and chase are reading romans together and i gave him a note book and he is going to write a summary of what each chapter is about!! and i am going to too!!! so i am just excited becuase God is using me in chases life so much right now and he is one person besides jared that ive always wanted to love the lord!!! And i just know that chase is really interested in God... but keeps running away to turn around and have god right behind him!~~
Another thing
okay so i have this friend and his name is mike! he was a graduate from paw paw highschool and is 19! he is one of my brothers best friends and he is really not that good of a kid.. he is kinda addicted to the "party" life.. and i have always been that girl to him to just balance him out and bring out the best in him... but than his mom kicked him out and his girlfriend broke up with him so he is living in Dekalb with this kid (justin) i went to homecoming with my freshman year.. and so anyway mike is now all depressed and has no one to talk to.. i call him and he doesnt answer and doesnt really want anything to do with paw paw ya know!! which sucked becuase we would have some real good talks about why i love God and whats so great about him becuase to mike... God wasnt good enough... so anyway mike called me like 2 weeks ago and had told me that he was at a party and was very drunk because he was depressed like usual to than i was like well did justin let you drive home? and he said yea cuase justin thought he was okay... so basically mike had blacked out and hit a truck (parked on the side of the road) and than had hit a tree... is drivers door fell off and pieces of his car were about 200ft from the tree! mike put his seat belt on before he left the party/... and if you know mike..,. he doenst wear his seat belt for nothing... so anyway mike walked away with only 7 stitches in his forehead!! and he was like leanne... i know one thing... and thats that God is real and if it wasnt for him i dont know if id be alive right now !!! and i just want to thank you for being that "god" in mylife~~~ really i dont know where to go from there but ya know what... he know that no matter how bad his life might be God is still chasing after him.. and thats just so mike will fall inlove with him!!! | | |
| Well today i am pretty good! my life has also been good. i am in basketball and we had a game last night which would be monday and we only lost by 10 and the school we played always kills us like 70 to 20 or something! so we actually did real good.
First off i just want to say that im sorry... im sorry to all the people that i used to keep in touch with and i dont any more.. know that i still love you no matter what and that im always here for you.
And Second..
Danielle... I love you so much and i understand that we havent talked much! and i know that we are both busy and stuff but i dont want you to actually leave IL and go to Alabama and have it be like it is now you mean so much more to me than that. You have taught me so much and have been there for me when least expected it. you know what i am always thinkin and your the ony one that usually can figure me out!! i look at you as a sister and always will~~~
Lindsay... seriously we dont talk either but i know that if anything you and smit ster! both are here for me and i can call you whenever i need to! and thats what a true friend is! you are so amazing and i dont want to ever lose you. you know so much and are always joyful.. God uses you both in my life everyday... just knowing that you and danielle both love God so much and you both want my life to be everything keeps me on the path that God has called for me... so thank you guys for being here for me even when sometimes i wasnt there for my self!!!
Smit ster!!! you are the best!!! you were the first guy that came in my life that actually was a true man of God. Smitty i love you so much. thank you so much for just wanting to take care of me. you have been the only on that has called me up just to say that you loved me and that you missed me and believe it or not that meant the world to me... You are my big brother. and for that i love you so much! and i love to actually have you in my life to ask me those questions about God that i have never thought about! You truly have a blessing on your life!!!
Samantha, Girl who would have guessed? you of all people? honetly i didnt!! i thought that you would be the hardest person to get "saved" and look at you.... Everyone that knows you knows that you love God with all your heart. and you live to please him! And that amazes me everyday... i was always the one tellin you everything and fighting for you... now your the one fighting and speakin the word of God. thanks for being the women that God has called you to.
Joey, I just wanted to say that You are so genuine!! and you def. love others no matter who they say that are and who they actually are! Thats what so unique about you! Your the nicest guy i have ever met! and all you want to do is serve God and i love that about you! Dont lose that Joey.. Your such a man of god... and when i talk to you about anything you never look at me differently or judge me on anything... God put you in my life for a reason.. and i thank him for that eveyday!
Morgan, I love how you are such a good friend!! and i know that your really trying to get you old life back and i give you props for that one!!! keep letting God work in you! And if you struggle than you struggle we all do! its okay! you know God!! and you know the life he wants for you!!! just grasp that and dont let it go!! Your so precious to God and I know God is all you have sometimes!!! i love you and you were my first REAL best friends... and sister.. no one can ever take that place!!!
sonny... Wow! You hear from God! and Thats so awesome! you trust god with every part of your life! I honesly dont know you that good but i know that you so different than anyone else i have ever met!! you seriously shine with the glory of God. and i just want to thank you so much for being so real.... but not just to me.. to everyone! keep it up buddy!
i just wanted to say thank you to those people.. there are so many more people to say thanks to but not enough time... people like danielle lindsay morgan sam joey sonny and smitty really impacted my life some how and have shown me a part of God i would have never found so soon!!!...... Those people took 2 sec out of their day or maybe hours to see how mine was going... those people wanted to take care of me and love me because thats what God wanted them to do! Those people are so obedient to the word or God and just to God himself ... Those people mean the world to me! and i thank God for them everyday!!!
~~ So i guess thanks to all of you who could actually be real to me!!! ~~ | | |
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